My letter to Ashley,
I really am so sad for the relationship we have now as mother and daugther. I love you more than you would ever know. I sacrificed for you. I have always given you more than I could afford. One thing that did not cost a dime was the time I gave you as a mom, that is something money could never buy. I have been there for you since the day you were born, through elementary, jr. high and high school. I know you don't remember much, but I remember I was the only parent at functions like, plays, award ceremonies, pep rallies,watching you practice, going to track meets, showing up at lunch and seeing you come out of the school, going to the office when they had a pic of you with a beer in your hand lol, spending time with your awesome friends, all the summer vacations with you, watching you grow into such a beautiful person, crying when you gave your valedictorian speech, going to Dillards with you, watching you get ready for proms, seeing the look in you gorgeous blue eyes, your blue beads hanging in your doorway in Goliad, taking up for you to other parents and mickey mouse friends, freaking out the Watts, watching you play volleyball, driving you to gym competitions, seeing you when you are really happy and full of joy, watching you get baptized, watching you behind the wheel of my truck( a little bug behind the wheel of a huge vehicle, loving the type of music you listen to, taking you to dinner, preming your hair when you were little, watching Delina do your hair, remembering your favorite dress when you were little( red and black pock a dot dress..lol) , your braces, pulling your retainer out of the dryer, your sliding glass door in your room that was hard to open, watching you and Austin smile at each other in your room, watching you and Kyle smile at each other in your room, your lava lamp, pictures of your friends in your room, the train trip to New Orleans ...lol, the train trip back to SA, remembering how cool you looked with your raybans on, you on the 4 wheeler, when the palm tree caught fire at your ranch party, your icebox in your room, you winning the grand champion goat!!!!!!!!!!!!!, when your hair turned green at a birthday party at the Goliad golf course, when you hurt yourself in track or cheering, when Jody knocked you down when you were on crutches in jr. high, your first jr. high cheerleader try outs ( you were the best one) you winning the bonus points in reading in elementary, your cool W. Shakepearse play in elementary, watching you as the head cheerleader, watching you fly in cheerleading, watching you do like 50 flip flop at Gym Magic and then hitting your lip and bleeding and then your coach almost fainting, watching you swim for the first time, seeing you cry and trying to comfort you, watching you play therther ball, shopping with you and seeing what you like to buy, you turning me on to makeup, seeing you for the first time when you were born, all the times you made me smile and laugh, listening to you read for the first time, caring for you when you were sick, worrying about you when you were out at night, hoping you made the right choices at parties, watching you dance...you are great, seeing the love in your eyes for Amber, the look on your face at your surprise birthday party I put on for you at Johnny Carinos, your cool hat you wore when you were small with the whirl bird on the top, you holding the scarf that Cody got for you, when you cut your leg on the vacation and we took you to the emergency room for stitches, when you collected money for flood victims, softball games when you got a hit or go somene out on base or caught a fly ball, when you cried in my arms about Austin when he broke your sweet loving heart, when you first rode a bike, when you mud wrestled with your friends at the tank and then smelled like cow crap, watching you walk around the University of Texas during orientation, when I got you Kitty, when I got you Honey at the pet shop, when Mickey was born, seeing you happy, seeing you sad, seeing you mad, watching you sleep, the look on your face when you returned from running away from home with Kristin, watching you prepare for your trip to Europe, the stories you told me about your trip to Europe, you getting your passport,......ohh I could go on and on.
I miss you very much. I love you more than you will ever know. I am so proud of you. You are so smart and so beautiful. I can't believe I have such a beautiful daughter that has my blood and genes in her body. I love your loving smile.
You bring me joy no matter what is going on. You are one of the best friends I have ever had.
Your one and only mother...:-)
Mom
